Saturday, October 29, 2011

That way I love you mwah mwah

                         If I am pressed to say why I loved him, I feel it can only be explained by replying: "Because it was he, Because it was me".....They are wrong who say that love is blind.This is my wish for him: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, sunsets to warm his heart, beauty for his eyes to see, friendships to brighten his being, faith so that he can believe, love to complete his life.
                        There is nothing I can say that would describe how i feel as perfectly as  deserve it.I knew I loved him when I realized that there was no one else I would rather laugh, cry and make memories with.......I have tired to move on but with every guy I feel more and more like I will never be able to replace him. And the sad thing is.. I know I have already been replaced.So many ways to say "I love You' But not enough words in the world to say how much. 
                           One day he'll love me, the way I love him. One day he'll think of me, the way I think of him.Every morning I wake up sad because I know I won't hear his voice.Every night I go bed happy because I'll have to talking until tomorrow to hear his voice again.I have had a really bad day and it always makes me feel better to hear a nice boy voice. So would youtalk for me?
                           Last night I hugged my pillow and dream of him... I wish that someday I'd dream about my pillow and I'd be hugging him. 
                           If he love me real, I can give everything and don't expect to receive anything in return.When I was a kid. I wanted to grow up soon. Now that I grown up, I realize that wounded emotions and never end loving him. I LOVE YOU Mwah MWah MWah <3


Tuesday, October 25, 2011

That much I love him!!

If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were ...
He said  'Zin come back to me! I knew ,I was hurt you a lot, I left you alone and I made you pain, But this time I try the best I can be forever with you. I can't lose you again. Then I LOVE YOU SO MUCH He get to understand How much I love him Before. I gonna be worry for him all the time ..when he will leave me? .. Do he hang out with his ex-gf again  or something like that bla bla bla bla bla ??? I always think about him! I have a lot question on my mind and my brain give me order to think this one, these ones.  Can't stop thinking about him. Every Night He told me a story about the past how was he love me .. I never think that much he love me ,, He get to pain a lot for me No reason when we knew each other on the past at Thailand. Because of his brother!!!!! I will tell about his brother later.. I don't want to tell now! Because I miss him right now!! 
I always text to him with a lot of question ...Tee Ruk(My love) what u doing now?.. where u at?  what u have to do after you back ? who u gonna hang out? R u sleeping? R u finish to eat lunch ..bla bla bla bla bla bla ..???????????? I don't know why i Have a lot Question for him.. but I know one thing in my mind , I don't want to lose him again. 
He know .I gonna mad if he didn't text back or call back!! He always made me worrying and he gonna apologize me first! If i hear his voice, I don't know what going on my mind .. CAn't stop to jump in my heart :P  .
He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me but sometimes he won’t call or text the wholeeee day. It makes me feel unloved but I don’t know how to let him know that without him getting mad. :( But I don't care why he didn't pick up my phone or text me back! I called him until he pick up my phone.
He said he doing nothing wrong and for me to stop worrying about everything. He has never gave me a reason to doubt his action but I don't know if I'm being paranoid. :( Also I have to change my mind to thinking about nonsense.
But I still Love him. If he say something about how much he love me and he apologized to me, then he give me many promise that he won't be again like it, After I heard that i can't keep my mind to mad him too long :) ..
If I never met him, I wouldn't like him. If I didn't like him, I wouldn't love him. If I didn't love him, I wouldn't miss him. But I did, I do, and I will and forever!