My greatmom passed away

                    My great grandma passed away yesterday morning at 9.45 am. Im in shock when i heard that news from my uncle.

                 At the moment I gonna cry , but my tears can't coming out. I feel so sad , I know it .. I love her so much.

                 I remember her voice now, calling me, endearing me to her. I desire it right now more than ever. Her breath brought peace to me, and now I can hold her no more and can't see her no more. 

                  I cry greatmom. I cry not only for myself,  I have lost a greatmom, I never think that u gonna leave me a lone until I will come back to you. You are the one I love! 

                 Right now the pain has not quelled a bit, but I show a strong face for my mother.

I miss you so much,The pain never ends, I know you are in Heaven now with God BUT i still need you so much. Im happy your not in pain anymore BUT i really need you so much.My life has fallen apart since losing you.Some days I wonder if its even worth going on.I sit and try to remeber the good times and watch the Home videos and it makes me miss you even more. I love you so much.This is ripping my heart out greatmom. 

                    I am sick now and in so much pain Im afraid i will die like you did.You were brave Im not sure i can be.

                   Someday, though, I'll find my way there. Because no matter how much I love life, I won't live forever. And maybe that's a beautiful thing, too.